This has been a rough year. My Dad died on March 14th after a long illness. I still have not gotten over it and probably never will. I miss him so much and have pushed away the pain of his passing so that somehow I can deal with it and get on with my life. But I haven't really. In some ways I've shut down so much that I may never open up again. I hope that's not true. I hope my heart can heal and be whole again and love again and trust again.